Sunday, May 2, 2010, 2.5.10
oh yea i love this song&Band it suits my life NOW i just wish i Burn AND Die ,
HollyWood Undead
Lyrics to Paradise Lost : So watch my chest heave as this last breath leaves me I am trying to be what you're dying to see
I feel like "Fuck man, can't take this, anymore, this heart, break this." This is life that's so thankless, How could he just forsake us?
Breaks us he makes us hate us he gave us nothing but no trust and I am so f**ked up So let this gun bind us Lets hide by this lust and once we are just dust he'll know that he loved us
LET IT ALL BURN I will burn first God i've tried, am i lost in your eyes?
Just let me burn, it's what I deserve. God i've lied, am i lost in your eyes?
So take me and make me weakened and save me this hate that you gave me keeps saying the same thing
to sing when you hurtin' to sing when you cry to sing when you livin' to sing when you die
and here at the end at the end of the hurt all the pain ain't the same when it's your turn to burn We're the heart for the heartless, the thoughts for the thoughtless, the lies for the honest We're the gods of the godless!
Let it all burn I will burn first God of time, am I lost in your eyes?
Just let me burn It's what I deserve God of mine, am I lost in your eyes?
So cry 3 tears for me, burning so good, sing me this song
So cry 3 tears for me, burning so good, burning so good
I can not stand who i am I'm this man with this blood on my hands in this blood I am damned so watch my wings burn as they burn in the fire I'll scatter the ashes now sing for the choir
Let it all burn, I will burn first God i've tried, am i lost in your eyes?
Just let me burn it's what I deserve, God i've lied, am i lost in your eyes?
This hate that you gave me keeps saying Just let me burn, Just let me burn
This hate that you gave me keeps saying Just let me burn, Just let me burn
Burn NOW Burn
Just let me burn NOW Burn
BURN!
, 2.5.10
every night i cry to sleep thinking and missing the past times with him
at times i think does he still care like he used too maybe am not worth it
am sorry if things fucked up put the blame on me cause am cursed
problems after problems as nights come i close my eyes wishing things would get better
but once i woke up disaster slaps me multiple times and the least i could wish for was seeing you like old days thats enough to wash out my sorrow
keeping me alive and pump up even tho its just a screen happiness flow via the multiple molecules from the air spaces
hoping he still care like he used too cause i cant stop loving him even tho in reality restriction puts us apart but one out of another i just hope, wish him the best in life living to the fullest and always having happiness in life and achieving his goals
one thing i would never forget is how someone makes me feel special i may have alot of exes but i just wanna thanks them for making my life happy at a certain point, am thankful enough. at least i gain happiness from past
think positive think straight all thats matter now is to focus calm down, be confident think beauty :D
, 2.5.10
Times clicking past Clock moving fast People comes and go As Quick as the bullet shoot Hit on every person
They keep on telling me its Bullshit I keep telling them NO its aint
They told me you're too far why am i still holding still? not worth it
They are there to tc of me but i dont want to care i can't altho I tried
Hes the only exception the one I think of even when am with others
if ever things turn bad healing process needed for me still cause i've fallen deep too deep down Down to where I feel Lonely and sick without him
the lesser time i spend with him the more the love grows grows taller bigger deeper to the ground
sins done forgives me baby but god knows who am thinking of only you in mind TRUE love counts more then just other guys
All I could think of while laying going to bed was only him
they said they love me but i dont feel the love like he showed me his is deep, as deep as the ocean
I dont believe in love at first sight i believe in love in sacrificing when they look at me all i can see is ily but idk you i need a gf quick you are the nearest
i respected people when they get to know me before saying the word "Love" Loving someone is hard to understand
easy to get to know if i really Love someone, I would cry to his name, Like i did for him, I would look at your eyes and said ILY and i meant it. Not just a bit but ILYSM
And only him I would say too. And i would sacrifice sleep just for him Hes my LOVE,Ian Wilde. :D ILYSM
, 2.5.10
4 months have past since new year. 2009 was a bad year; as much happened in 2009. theres goods and bad in every year. hoping 2010 would be much better, but turns out to be much worse, guess things will get better sooner or later. i'll keep praying hard, even tho am not that religious. i still pray quietly that things would get better.
everykid would be super glad when they reach that age 18-21; the period where one celebrates of having priviledge doing anything without getting caught. like Hey am 18, i can buy my own cig/alcohol and watch m18 movies. and when am 21, i could legally watch r21 or enter a sexshop. if you're in US,you can buy alcohol or get in a strip bar. am not talking about the age rights of the outside laws for now. whats the topic for discussion for today is how teenagers feel about having rights of doing things they want, and getting supported by both friends and family. how many percent of the family out there support their teenager in this modern days? have you ever do a gig performance and 1 before you go out your family wishes you goodluck when you comes back they asked you how was it & supported you even when the crowds wasn't that overwhelm. 2 your dad volunteered to send you to the gig place themself. or even stayed and watched/ cheer you up. or maybe joke with you " hey maybe you get a lady for the night,wink!" or where a scenario of telling them you gonna make a band? what would their reaction be? i had not done any survey; but i guaranteed 99% of the parents would go, "don't you have a better dream?" "you're just wasting your time with that stupid gig, band stuff" "you should be studying"
firstly before you scold your son/daughter where you learnt all those crude words, when you hear them saying it out, ask yourself, have you used it on them. maybe you can't remembered or maybe not on them, maybe to other random people.
Teenagers are like babies they catch words easily too. Teenager are the most sensitive period of a persons life. its normal if your son/daughters a rebel this is part of teenagers. this is the period where one try to adapt to the outside world, trying new things, bad or good, where one fails and learnt from it. like the quote meant it "success is from failing". unless you are born in a rich family,well not everyone is lucky enough. even the rich kids are rebellious too. try asking their parents.
Being a teenager myself I know how hard it is to be one. its like everything is against you. one always wishes they get supported by families&friends in doing the things they enjoy.
For myself am happy when am doing art, listening to music and sharing it with clicks whom enjoys the same genres as me. And I believes you dont need to be super intelligent to achieve these goals. Am not asking you guys to burnt down or skip schools or books, what am implying is that if you want to be an musician or artist, you need not take a Master or PHD to be one. its about having passion and practicing on obtaining the skills needed.
this teles when you ask someone who hates art to draw, he/she would go 'are you kidding me'ends up they gives up or just draw something simple Some people were born with talents like drawing or singing, but what I can say what people do not know is that yes maybe they git the blood of an artist or singer; but what i can say is from my perspective, thats Bullshit! why I say this cause tell me which baby after a min being born can sing or draw like Leonardo Da Vinci? Even his son cant do that.neither does any singer or famous artists sons/daughters out there can. its the matter of they themselves have passion on it and learnt it themselves or they were taught at a young age and as times goes by they gets better.
what best is they get support by their families&crews. whether youre a teenager or a parents, its best to support each other. i got plenty of Tips of do and donts of building a good relationship; basically not only use for witin families matter but also with anyone eg, boss,crew,members.
TIPS;
1) always support one another decision 2) always lend a helping hand 3) stop everything; listen carefully, when someone is talking 4) Always think before you do something; would you be happy later if you do this? if yes, continue; if no, find something you are happy doing. 5) Never put anyone down, even if you hate them.If you didnt; once you regain your mind, apologize. 6) Always think of being happy, do the things you enjoy 7) Never mention bad pasts of someone, it would bring back bad memories, everyone has a bad pasts memories they wanna forget, so never mention it, what pasts is past. 8) Be nice to people if you want to be treated nicely back. 9) Keep in touch with the people, youll never know when you need them, so its not like youre using them, only find them when you need them. 10)Try to have a get together day every month with friends and crews. 11)Have dinner together every weekend as a family; spend time together, ask your kid/parents what they did&how things going on for the whole week?
Quickly to summaries everything up is always support one another,respect ones decision, and always keep in track with the people you Care.So i Hope this helps you guys. Any question do ask me I'll try to search on it, am not an experts to give a very good ideas, but am trying to share what i Learnt and Found out from what I have obtain from Knowledge on reading psychology books. Cheers and Happy days to you people and always Stay Happy in doing the things you enjoy :)
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