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Sunday, May 2, 2010, 2.5.10

oh yea i love this song&Band it suits my life NOW
i just wish i Burn AND Die ,

HollyWood Undead

Lyrics to Paradise Lost :
So watch my chest heave
as this last breath leaves me
I am trying to be
what you're dying to see

I feel like "Fuck man,
can't take this, anymore,
this heart, break this."
This is life that's so thankless,
How could he just forsake us?

Breaks us he makes us
hate us he gave us
nothing but no trust
and I am so f**ked up
So let this gun bind us
Lets hide by this lust
and once we are just dust
he'll know that he loved us

LET IT ALL BURN
I will burn first
God i've tried, am i lost in your eyes?

Just let me burn, it's what I deserve.
God i've lied, am i lost in your eyes?

So take me and make me
weakened and save me
this hate that you gave me
keeps saying the same thing

to sing when you hurtin'
to sing when you cry
to sing when you livin'
to sing when you die

and here at the end
at the end of the hurt
all the pain ain't the same
when it's your turn to burn
We're the heart for the heartless,
the thoughts for the thoughtless,
the lies for the honest
We're the gods of the godless!

Let it all burn
I will burn first
God of time, am I lost in your eyes?

Just let me burn
It's what I deserve
God of mine, am I lost in your eyes?

So cry 3 tears for me,
burning so good,
sing me this song

So cry 3 tears for me,
burning so good,
burning so good

I can not stand
who i am I'm this man
with this blood on my hands
in this blood I am damned
so watch my wings burn
as they burn in the fire
I'll scatter the ashes
now sing for the choir

Let it all burn,
I will burn first
God i've tried, am i lost in your eyes?

Just let me burn
it's what I deserve,
God i've lied, am i lost in your eyes?

This hate that you gave me keeps saying
Just let me burn,
Just let me burn

This hate that you gave me keeps saying
Just let me burn,
Just let me burn

Burn
NOW
Burn

Just let me burn
NOW
Burn

BURN!

, 2.5.10

every night i cry to sleep
thinking and missing
the past times with him

at times i think
does he still care like he used too
maybe am not worth it

am sorry if things fucked up
put the blame on me
cause am cursed

problems after problems
as nights come
i close my eyes
wishing things would get better

but once i woke up
disaster slaps me multiple times
and the least i could wish for
was seeing you like old days
thats enough to wash out my sorrow

keeping me alive
and pump up
even tho its just a screen
happiness flow via the multiple molecules
from the air spaces

hoping he still care
like he used too
cause i cant stop loving him
even tho in reality
restriction puts us apart
but one out of another
i just hope, wish
him the best in life
living to the fullest and always having
happiness in life
and achieving his goals

one thing i would never forget
is how someone makes me feel special
i may have alot of exes
but i just wanna thanks them for making my life happy
at a certain point,
am thankful enough.
at least i gain happiness from past

think positive think straight
all thats matter now is to focus
calm down, be confident
think beauty :D

, 2.5.10

Times clicking past
Clock moving fast
People comes and go
As Quick as the bullet shoot
Hit on every person

They keep on telling me
its Bullshit
I keep telling them NO
its aint

They told me you're too far
why am i still holding still?
not worth it

They are there to tc of me
but i dont want to care
i can't altho I tried

Hes the only exception
the one I think of
even when am with others

if ever things turn bad
healing process needed for me still
cause i've fallen deep too deep down
Down to where I feel Lonely
and sick without him

the lesser time i spend
with him the more the love grows
grows taller bigger deeper to the ground

sins done
forgives me baby
but god knows who am thinking of
only you in mind
TRUE love counts more then just other guys

All I could think of while laying
going to bed
was only him

they said they love me
but i dont feel the love
like he showed me
his is deep,
as deep as the ocean

I dont believe in love at first sight
i believe in love in sacrificing
when they look at me
all i can see is ily but idk you
i need a gf quick
you are the nearest

i respected people when they get to know me
before saying the word "Love"
Loving someone is hard to understand

easy to get to know if i really Love someone,
I would cry to his name,
Like i did for him,
I would look at your eyes and said ILY
and i meant it.
Not just a bit but ILYSM

And only him I would say too.
And i would sacrifice sleep just for him
Hes my LOVE,Ian Wilde. :D
ILYSM

, 2.5.10

4 months have past since new year.
2009 was a bad year; as much happened in 2009.
theres goods and bad in every year.
hoping 2010 would be much better,
but turns out to be much worse,
guess things will get better sooner or later.
i'll keep praying hard, even tho am not that religious.
i still pray quietly that things would get better.

everykid would be super glad when they reach that age
18-21; the period where one celebrates of having priviledge
doing anything without getting caught.
like Hey am 18, i can buy my own cig/alcohol and watch m18 movies.
and when am 21, i could legally watch r21 or enter a sexshop.
if you're in US,you can buy alcohol or get in a strip bar.
am not talking about the age rights of the outside laws for now.
whats the topic for discussion for today is
how teenagers feel about having rights of doing things they want,
and getting supported by both friends and family.
how many percent of the family out there support their teenager in this modern days?
have you ever do a gig performance and
1 before you go out your family wishes you goodluck
when you comes back they asked you how was it & supported you
even when the crowds wasn't that overwhelm.
2 your dad volunteered to send you to the gig place themself.
or even stayed and watched/ cheer you up.
or maybe joke with you " hey maybe you get a lady for the night,wink!"

or where a scenario of telling them you gonna make a band?
what would their reaction be?
i had not done any survey; but i guaranteed 99% of the parents would go,
"don't you have a better dream?"
"you're just wasting your time with that stupid gig, band stuff"
"you should be studying"

firstly before you scold your son/daughter where you learnt all those crude words,
when you hear them saying it out, ask yourself, have you used it on them.
maybe you can't remembered or maybe not on them, maybe to other random people.

Teenagers are like babies they catch words easily too.
Teenager are the most sensitive period of a persons life.
its normal if your son/daughters a rebel this is part of teenagers.
this is the period where one try to adapt to the outside world,
trying new things, bad or good, where one fails and learnt from it.
like the quote meant it "success is from failing".
unless you are born in a rich family,well not everyone is lucky enough.
even the rich kids are rebellious too.
try asking their parents.

Being a teenager myself I know how hard it is to be one.
its like everything is against you.
one always wishes they get supported by families&friends in doing the things they enjoy.

For myself am happy when am doing art, listening to music and sharing it with clicks
whom enjoys the same genres as me.
And I believes you dont need to be super intelligent to achieve these goals.
Am not asking you guys to burnt down or skip schools or books,
what am implying is that if you want to be an musician or artist,
you need not take a Master or PHD to be one.
its about having passion and practicing on obtaining the skills needed.

this teles when you ask someone who hates art to draw,
he/she would go 'are you kidding me'ends up they gives up or just draw something simple
Some people were born with talents like drawing or singing,
but what I can say what people do not know is that yes maybe they git the blood of an artist or singer;
but what i can say is from my perspective, thats Bullshit!
why I say this cause tell me which baby after a min being born can sing or draw like Leonardo Da Vinci?
Even his son cant do that.neither does any singer or famous artists sons/daughters out there can.
its the matter of they themselves have passion on it and learnt it themselves or
they were taught at a young age and as times goes by they gets better.

what best is they get support by their families&crews.
whether youre a teenager or a parents, its best to support each other.
i got plenty of Tips of do and donts of building a good relationship;
basically not only use for witin families matter but also with anyone
eg, boss,crew,members.

TIPS;

1) always support one another decision
2) always lend a helping hand
3) stop everything; listen carefully, when someone is talking
4) Always think before you do something; would you be happy later if you do this?
if yes, continue; if no, find something you are happy doing.
5) Never put anyone down, even if you hate them.If you didnt;
once you regain your mind, apologize.
6) Always think of being happy, do the things you enjoy
7) Never mention bad pasts of someone, it would bring back bad memories,
everyone has a bad pasts memories they wanna forget,
so never mention it, what pasts is past.
8) Be nice to people if you want to be treated nicely back.
9) Keep in touch with the people, youll never know when you need them,
so its not like youre using them, only find them when you need them.
10)Try to have a get together day every month with friends and crews.
11)Have dinner together every weekend as a family; spend time together,
ask your kid/parents what they did&how things going on for the whole week?

Quickly to summaries everything up is always support one another,respect ones decision,
and always keep in track with the people you Care.So i Hope this helps you guys.
Any question do ask me I'll try to search on it, am not an experts to give a very good ideas,
but am trying to share what i Learnt and Found out from what I have obtain from Knowledge on reading psychology books.
Cheers and Happy days to you people and always Stay Happy in doing the things you enjoy :)