Thursday, April 15, 2010, 15.4.10
shouts and curse gets deep into me years by days
that day changed everything i was the kid a loser kid who's just dumb and follow the shit
shit which i dont even know but was blame for being a fool even tho i was a loser kid whom didn't know shit
as i grew up knowing what it is it stays as a deep scar that follows me around
everytime mistakes done the scar comes back from curses i have to endure
don't blame me for not having confidence in myself cause i tried my best to stand strong but things just crumbles down every time i manage to overcome it before i could fully lift it away another comes tumbles down on top of it
and am still trying hard alone by myself now sometimes giving up is in my dictionary but i eliminate it by telling myself yes i can do it
and when i fall down no angel gonna help me up maybe they'll come but they would leave you as soon as things are way beyond their weight then another comes and leave too and the same goes on and on
this is my life endures, pain, being left please dont say you care if you know you can't mean it forever this is the reason why its hard for me to trust cause i knew people comes and go and they only meant it at the moment
the reason why its hard to fall in love that easy once you fall deep you just find its just a sweet dream which dont last long nightmares are the ones who is your true follower
i just wish i was swept away to a deserted island which i can stay alone alone by myself and idw to be rescued i just wanna die there at least its peaceful
every night i cry thinking of my sucky life even when i try to make it better none appreciate
psychology books are my true friends it keeps me pump up being positive even if its a while thanks god theres psychology
shouts again earphones on music blast stop all the negativity i dont care no more am not with him anymore mom so you can jump hell yay
for info he was the one who guide me who told me to listen to you i was the one whom is bad why must you blame him blame me, not him
yes am the bad bitch now murder me alrdy my guide is no more thanks to you, its always ended up this way near or far relationship yes its pitiful
am 20 but lifes a hell for me whats the point of living old when you get yell at negativity throw at you daily kill me alrdy use a knife pierce it into me shoot me with a gun hit my head hard that my brain comes pouring out
am sick of crying even if i cry out blood things wont change let it go and move on all i can do. is keep myself pump up and happy :)
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20-01-1990
Aquarius
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Age: 20
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