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Friday, December 18, 2009, 18.12.09

When you're in Love,
everything seems to be like in fairytales,
where the butterflies are beautiful,
the sunny stars shine brightly,
and the smile on your cheeks are always UP.

What I can tell is that yes I think am in Love,
idk why, but I keep smiling,blushing at the thots of you.
and how i wish the day we will be meeting is fast forward..

I used to have a broken fragile heart,
where any guys whom try to enter fails to fix it right.
cause I just can't accept guys no matter how or what.
am not saying they are mean towards me or what,
I just dont feel the waves or connection..
the electric waves of two humans need to be connected,
in order to fall in love, and this is when both understands one another dearly.
and this occurs even when you dont see em, or when you see em..

why does my heart changes when he's on?it's like I always look forward to seeing him.
no matter how we nvr meet,i still feel the connection,idk why..
is it just the brain playing??theres this part where i was thinking,
to like him or him..4 yrs of liking someone diff,turn to just one turn of liking someone else,
which idk much,but the connection is much stronger then the 4 yrs of liking another person,
yes its weird or is this what they call the magic of love?

all i wish for christmas is you..to see and spend time with you..
thats it.. not more..and i just wish my wish would come true..
at least i have something to be happy of for this yr..
2009 have been a hell yr for me..and i just wanna start my new yr 2010,
happily..thats all i wish for before my bday..to see him before he goes back for studies..

i just want to say this to that person if he knew it's for him..
idk why but i think i fallen for you,and you show me how to love again,
you show me that not all guys out there are the same,
you told me that your kind are very rare, yes i agree.
you told me you wanted to raise your son in teaching him,
how to cook,gardening and respect women..and you wanna save the mankind,
of these kinda type of gentlemen..you told me about the music waves etc.
it doesn't have any topic on what most guys would talk with me..
this is why i think you are different.your mindset,your personalities.
is much more matter to me then how you look,idc how curly is your hair,
or how your eyes look bad, how much you drink ,how rich you are,
or how many packs you have, or how bad the connection is,
its nice you said sorry, but its ok, i understand, seeing you on9 and talking to me,
alrdy makes my heart skips alot.and the next day starting off with a smile and gd mood,
at work,thinking of you..everytime when am in the train i just cant wait to get home ,
to go online to talk to you.its ok if you dont reply within a min..i'll still wait....
it's ok if you fall asleep while chatting.it's ok if you when awy or didn't say bye..
cause i appreciate your apologies the next day telling the truth of what happened.
at least i know..everytime i miss you i hug my teddy calling your name as you name it,
i know the distance kills,when i go out i see couples together i wish i can be like them,
with you..but i believe one day we can meet and things would change in yrs to come :)
if the connection waves is still strong...i believe that one day we can be together just like,
the other couples ..i nvr tell you this directly yet, but i just wish to tell you..
I LOVE YOU.and I'LL WAIT FOR YOU anytime :D

ps:// i hope he reads it and knows its him....