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Friday, December 25, 2009, 25.12.09

Life is clueless,when one is deep
one moment you know you are deep down
next you are mixing up and not care bout anything
how deep are you?are you as deep as me
my wish is to see every lil human on this planet smile
no war no blood shed where we care for one another
even the tiniest bit,what most human think is themself
yes, they are selfish, one another fights for ownself,to be high
and critize those who are slow or fails,those whom are rich..
look down on those poor kids,like how they can afford having cars,
buy branded stuff, and showing it off at schools, and when the un-
affordable kids look they get envy and the only way they can get those
stuff are by stealing it.and which ends up in prison or boys home.and
once they got a record in there ppl look down on them again. oh this kid is
someone bad,he/she has gone in prison before.why? they do all these, ask them
you'll know why,rather then talking non-stop talking bad bout them,critising them,
which makes one much worst then those ppl.even michael make a video about the world
its bold of him, and he got critize just for being nice,see this view,people are dying to be bad.
they fight to be top in putting ppl down.not fight for positive, instead fight for negativity.
this is earth.if theres other planet with living things,they would put earth as their comedy
show/entertainment laughing to the stupidity of the creatures living on earth.
even aliens can live harmoniously what a shame dont you think so?i think not we should
be afraid of aliens but instead aliens should be afraid of us instead.

another word i can say i care for everyone expecially those whom I know and close with.
and am happy mom and me are fine now..i love you people. just one advice to you all whom
am close, always think you're special and dont give up in life, be positive no matter what,
or how hard you work, deep down at least one person is thankful of what you've done ...
thank you everyone for being my friend and always be by my side,even if not always, but
the past times is still appreciated by me :) and for mom,i love you always whether if you
are mad or you hate me,idc what you want to think but if you ever knew i always cry and pray
at night for ur safety everytime you go to work. and yea god do take care of her when my
love ones are out, keep them save from danger, may angels protect them from bad things..
i love you all and thank you people :D

Friday, December 18, 2009, 18.12.09

When you're in Love,
everything seems to be like in fairytales,
where the butterflies are beautiful,
the sunny stars shine brightly,
and the smile on your cheeks are always UP.

What I can tell is that yes I think am in Love,
idk why, but I keep smiling,blushing at the thots of you.
and how i wish the day we will be meeting is fast forward..

I used to have a broken fragile heart,
where any guys whom try to enter fails to fix it right.
cause I just can't accept guys no matter how or what.
am not saying they are mean towards me or what,
I just dont feel the waves or connection..
the electric waves of two humans need to be connected,
in order to fall in love, and this is when both understands one another dearly.
and this occurs even when you dont see em, or when you see em..

why does my heart changes when he's on?it's like I always look forward to seeing him.
no matter how we nvr meet,i still feel the connection,idk why..
is it just the brain playing??theres this part where i was thinking,
to like him or him..4 yrs of liking someone diff,turn to just one turn of liking someone else,
which idk much,but the connection is much stronger then the 4 yrs of liking another person,
yes its weird or is this what they call the magic of love?

all i wish for christmas is you..to see and spend time with you..
thats it.. not more..and i just wish my wish would come true..
at least i have something to be happy of for this yr..
2009 have been a hell yr for me..and i just wanna start my new yr 2010,
happily..thats all i wish for before my bday..to see him before he goes back for studies..

i just want to say this to that person if he knew it's for him..
idk why but i think i fallen for you,and you show me how to love again,
you show me that not all guys out there are the same,
you told me that your kind are very rare, yes i agree.
you told me you wanted to raise your son in teaching him,
how to cook,gardening and respect women..and you wanna save the mankind,
of these kinda type of gentlemen..you told me about the music waves etc.
it doesn't have any topic on what most guys would talk with me..
this is why i think you are different.your mindset,your personalities.
is much more matter to me then how you look,idc how curly is your hair,
or how your eyes look bad, how much you drink ,how rich you are,
or how many packs you have, or how bad the connection is,
its nice you said sorry, but its ok, i understand, seeing you on9 and talking to me,
alrdy makes my heart skips alot.and the next day starting off with a smile and gd mood,
at work,thinking of you..everytime when am in the train i just cant wait to get home ,
to go online to talk to you.its ok if you dont reply within a min..i'll still wait....
it's ok if you fall asleep while chatting.it's ok if you when awy or didn't say bye..
cause i appreciate your apologies the next day telling the truth of what happened.
at least i know..everytime i miss you i hug my teddy calling your name as you name it,
i know the distance kills,when i go out i see couples together i wish i can be like them,
with you..but i believe one day we can meet and things would change in yrs to come :)
if the connection waves is still strong...i believe that one day we can be together just like,
the other couples ..i nvr tell you this directly yet, but i just wish to tell you..
I LOVE YOU.and I'LL WAIT FOR YOU anytime :D

ps:// i hope he reads it and knows its him....

Thursday, December 10, 2009, 10.12.09

well its been a while since i post something.
hah,alot of things are happening and had happened,
found a job, 18chefs, yea.. buzy with work,
and exams and finally it's OVER!!
today was the last day of school!!
HELL WOOHOOOO...
the day i waited for!
and it's hols now until the 5th Jan :)
And I can't Wait to go KL..
Yea to meet my French Guy Friend, Ashraft :D
Wait up for me dude!!. hahahahahas..
And yea A big Happy Birthday to You From me,
no worries Am sure to Sing LIVE for you when we meet ..
hahahas..oh lala i can't WAIT..hahas..
If I could, I would buy a tix to KL now!!
hahahas..but i guess should wait up for my cousin to get here and get bck to KL, with them :D
lalalalas..