Wednesday, July 1, 2009, 1.7.09
fine from bad~worst~HELL!! i don't understand my life... why can't happiness stay? is it cause am a bad person? i know i am..i admit it I'M A BAD PERSON!! so yea~but doesn't a bad person also deserve happy life?
look at the stars.moon.sky. i wish i can be the star?moon?sky? easier life.and no life.and no need to think much. so yea.cut me with a blade.let the blood flow. idc no more.no one care.what is care?
no worries.madness is nvr showed. am thankful i got such an awesome daddy!! i love you dad for being the best dad,! am thankful!!! nice and understanding, and gives everything i want~ thanks dad...
am praying tom comes fast so i can quickly leave for my vacation,and ease my mind... seriously i really really need to rest my mind, altho i know when i get bck things not going to be well.. but all i know is am gonna have fun there. and hope someone can show me love and care there even if it was only for a while? am not hoping much,but i just wish i have that in my life..
how cool and calm and trying my best not to care~ i still care..yes i treasure you still thanks chris for showing me love and care and making me special,even if it was only a moment~you are appreciated and am thankful at least..hope you the best and am here as a friend if you got problem..even if you dont want to~~
if i can shout this moment YES i want to shout!! i hate my life!!!!
idc no more now!!cause no one cares. seriously i wish i die this moment..oh i wish i never love anyone, i used to hate guys alot due to my past..~don't ask why.. don't want to tell!!and still hating now!!,but i stop at a moment, when someone said i won't treat you like the others..yes not easy for me to trust, no matter how i still never trust, but as times pass my trust is increasing, and i can tell this theres hundreds of guys of there that wish they can be trusted, why i can't?but why do i trust one guy?yes you!!~hmm~ guys are all the same..only think of themself!,and all dirty minded!! no you just want the body not the heart!! oh and they're good with sweet and nice talk! which will melt any girls heart~ but well who cares, this is part of life! and i learnt something in life~so yea... humans are not perfect,they are weak..i know so forgiven..and cool~ cause IDC no more,i have a black heart! yes am still playing my own game. *Grin* and i just wish idk,one day i die, and thats that..IDC much.. FUCK YOU PEOPLE!! leave me alone!if you do i would too! and i would never do bad things to you, and any others....... so yea..just live me alone..
i need alone time YAY 12 MORE HRS TO WAKE UP AND KL VACATION!
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