Saturday, June 27, 2009, 27.6.09
why does everyone sees the bad side of me only? and what all the good deeds I've done for them?? all wasted...i told you no one in this world is appreciative!! and thankful!!
like seriously i care for everyone i know!~ and i can tell you this... ok am not good in telling, but am good in showing.. cause i seriously have no guts in telling.....
no one knows that everynight, before i sleep i think of my past, bad past?good past?everything, and i can tell you thanks if you had been in my life before, am thankful for the memories,idc if it's bad or good.. it still a past...and seriously everyone is speaking bullshit of moving on!~ yes you can move on.. but the memory is still can't be erase.. unless you hit your brain on a stone hard..or u're a person who is like the guy in "butterfly effect" even he still remembers after he read all the diaries..
all i can say is am very very THANKFUL!!~and i still thinks of you..
oh what i want now!!hug chris..cause he always makes me cry!cause he too sweet and caring and always making me special!~and i can tell you not all the guys out there is nice like him..idk .......... most guys only care for the body,seriously...i know that!!i know guys have a hell of high uncontrolness on these issues... but seriously..no girl, idk others....like being made a TOY!
expecially me an emotional girl....idc if you hate me,its better!!then being nice and quietly care and all but with motive..i hate people like this.. it's more painful then receiving a hate from a person who hates you and say it on ur face!!! but nvrmind!!.. IDC really.. even if i care, no one really cares..so it's better not to say or pretend i don't care..cause it's better cause it makes me not think of it.. makes myself busy..makes my mind busy..work work work..
thats why i need work to put my mind at ease.. so it won't think to much else then WORK. idc if it get sicks...my body all i want is my mind to be busy!!too busy to think of all the past..and think of how am i going to work ltr?oh must do this.. yes.. do that.. work this work that..oh ok a break 5 mins.. ok passss 5 mins back to work..quick sch!! start!! i miss sch life now!!~:(
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20-01-1990
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Age: 20
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