hey life had been a lil improving~
but am still thinking why am i still feeling solemly sad?
whats missing now?am confuse now..

love?i have..too much ..
friends yup..only now and secretly missing everyone..
the truth here.....................
once you've been with me,have any connection with me..
idc if you don't think or care bout me...
i still do think of you..yes the past..or now..is still the same..
i still remember every person whom i go thru in life with me..
well it would be a lie if i said i think everytime,everyday,everyhours..
but i still thinks at times..usually when am alone.......am much a thinker..
it'll takes the whole day if i would to list everyone....but hey people i miss and think of you still.

and everyday i wake up it be a new day,
life had been bitchy,but still theres times when am serious..
fun is fun,serious is serious...and i can still be very serious and thats when i would,
wake up and do everything straight!!like NOW! and don't expect me to be talking crap rite now.

i miss my girls!!very much!!
syuha,aida,yami,vee,rina,khad,liza,ais
LOVE YOU & NEVER DIESSSS..
(i know i dont say this f-2-f..you might think am too mushy or turning lesbian haha..but i mean it.love you guys very much!!)

i know am a very emotional person,HUSH,thats just who i am really..
am sensitive yes! so what..soyabean,mr bean..hahahas *LAME*(-_-)

And get this straight once you are in my friend friend list,
i will always love and be there and think of you...don't care..
if you don't towards me. i still be a caring,lovable,nice friend to you all...
and secretly i care for all of you!so don't think that no one care!
i admit theres times when am being an ass, everyone has their ass day..LOL
we all are humans..same same...forgive and forget....we all are not god..we ain't perfect..
today you did a mistake,tom you feel bad,the next day you did the same...continuessssssss
and never say oh am not like that..then i would say BULLSHIT!!,all life is same..
have it ups and down..so hey everyone is the same rite?

and asking for forgiveness from everyone who i did wrong,and thankness to those who have been awesome and make my life wonderful..and
i love you all!!

oh to Christopher--->thanks for making my life awesome and making me special,love you!!but forgive me i got to share my love with the others too... but you will be on top list!!:)and i thanks you alot for being very sweet and nice to me..very very thankful ALOT!and knowing the real real me, and helping and caring for me,sharing all my sorrows and happiness and making me special......
and showing me true LOVE.and accepting all the shitness of me..i can say this to you,am not that nice but am thankful to met you!!you are such a sweetie and nice boyfriend and understanding,and all i can promise you is that i would never forget every lil things you did for me,being caring and all the hugs...never, not even if we are apart from each other...and like we said,let see how things work..no rushing, go with the flow..and let the stream led us in life...we can't do nothing,else then wait and see :)....[miss you,kisses,love you <3 hugs]

and YES am just going with the flow of life......what awaits me no one knows.....all i know is i love everyone even if i said i hate them...i don't really meant it..sometimes...it just stupid moody emotion on that time...so yea ....you all soo much appreciated..(^U^)

LOVE MY FAMILY,FRIENDS,NATURE,GOD,EVERYTHING...
:(i want a cat.....