I Just Wasted my Time Waking in the Morning,
Thot of taking my Salary $$
But the Bloody Bank haven't Open Yet,
Plus I have to go there In Pain..

Yes it Hurts Alot..
Yesterday Operation..
ADD ON TO....
+Sore Throat
+Flames in Throat
+Headache
+Backache
+Stomach Ache
+Sun Burnt
+A Nagging in the Morning

And Again not Able to go to School;
and I miss alot Already..
And Seriously I really want to go to school;
Because of my Studies;
I seriously Don't Know What I'm Gona DO after I finish my ITE;
When I think Back,Really whats going to be for me
in my Future?
Like I got no Ambition?
Kids grow up with Ambitions like always:
"When grow up i want to become a DOCTOR,TEACHER,CHEF..ETC."
Like seriously How many of those Ambitions when you or anyone
is Young at that time..FULFILLED in having their Ambition PASS?
Maybe Some,Succesor..Plenty..

But for me I already SEE myself as a FAILURE,
The most Important person who should Support You Mostly,
Isn't there for You,

I'm already been fucking Fuck UP in my Life,
and Now Sickness;
additional of Mom not caring for me,
Like seriously Even if I have Motivation in my Life,
and when the person you LOVE say this..
"I dont Care Already What You Want to do...."
yes, I know maybe they don't really meant it.
But seriously;for me when you say that it absorb in me..
Deep inside my Heart..
YES I OWNED UP I'M AN EMOTIONAL SHITTY PERSON OK!

And the thots of...
"You should get a better course,easy to get Jobs,Nursing should be a good COURSE..
Now,Wasted..Somemore,waste Time in ITE..waste $$,why can't you just be like .......,
they so clever...GOOD..."
Comparism,Like Seriously Which Mother Friend Would Boost About,
their Children Being a Failure,
of cause the would tell you the GOOD things..
And Comparing STUDIES in SG and Malaysian..
~OH MAN~

NOW TELL ME HOW DO I GET MOTIVATED WITH THESE COMMENTS KEEP COMING EVERYDAY??

I know anyone would say oh actually, you should prove them wrong...
You should show them You're BETTER..
Nah it doesn't WORKS on me..
I rather have PRAISES..
Even if I don't do that GOOD,
i would like to Hear "Oh its OK,You did your Best..No Pressure.GoodWork,Keep the GDWork Going.."(^_^)
that will Boost my Motivation More..
NOT With Bad Comments.
At least I feel more Relax ..
that boost my motivation to do better..
Rather then "oh man you should Have Done Better,OR Thats it you can get?"

YES human can never be Satisfied with anything,
Greedy Bunch of Living Creatures.
I Rather be A non-living thing.
A BED?A COFFIN?THE STARS?THE MOON?


and OH Seriously I Just Wish I can just DIE Now..
as I'm already feeling Like Dying.


I HOPE MIRACLES CAN HAPPEN TO ME..SOON..ONE FINE DAY?WHEN?