Yay Finally When to the Doctor to get MC and Medication

And the Doctor gave me 2 day MC

Which is for today and tomorrow..

so it be a TOTAL of 3 day absent from School

Hahas,

Episode 4 of Atashinchi no Danshi!!

is OUT!!!

Waiting for the rest of the episodes to be uploaded SOON.

Then a lil bit of Tokyo Ghost Trip episode 4;

And I Watched Alot of Dramas Today,

AND Now Koizora Drama!

Koji in it!! As Hiro!!

i dont like his Hair in there..

But he still CUTE!!!

As usually,

and When I watched it I was like asking myself,

What does it feel to Fall in LOVE?

Seriously?Does it feel so Wonderful?

Cause Seriously,IDK...

All I know is it Brings Alot of Heartache,

This is the Reason Why I Hate to Fall in LOVE,

Dissapointing?I Know..

~LOL~

But Hey The Plot of the Story is Nice,

I've Watched the Movie Before..

And I simply Love and Touched by it...

And This is more LOVE!

About TRUE LOVE&FIRST KISS&FIRST LOVE&TRUST&SACRIFICE

Cause at Last the Guy die of Sickness..(in the Movie tho,drama haven't complete watching)

And I HATE when this happens..

But do ALL these BOLD WORDS? EVEN EXISTS NOW?

Hahas..Don't Think So..

It only Happens in FILMS...

So Happy Happy Always People And Always be Happy with your LOVE ones.

Cause it wouldn't Stay Long,

I Just Wasted my Time Waking in the Morning,
Thot of taking my Salary $$
But the Bloody Bank haven't Open Yet,
Plus I have to go there In Pain..

Yes it Hurts Alot..
Yesterday Operation..
ADD ON TO....
+Sore Throat
+Flames in Throat
+Headache
+Backache
+Stomach Ache
+Sun Burnt
+A Nagging in the Morning

And Again not Able to go to School;
and I miss alot Already..
And Seriously I really want to go to school;
Because of my Studies;
I seriously Don't Know What I'm Gona DO after I finish my ITE;
When I think Back,Really whats going to be for me
in my Future?
Like I got no Ambition?
Kids grow up with Ambitions like always:
"When grow up i want to become a DOCTOR,TEACHER,CHEF..ETC."
Like seriously How many of those Ambitions when you or anyone
is Young at that time..FULFILLED in having their Ambition PASS?
Maybe Some,Succesor..Plenty..

But for me I already SEE myself as a FAILURE,
The most Important person who should Support You Mostly,
Isn't there for You,

I'm already been fucking Fuck UP in my Life,
and Now Sickness;
additional of Mom not caring for me,
Like seriously Even if I have Motivation in my Life,
and when the person you LOVE say this..
"I dont Care Already What You Want to do...."
yes, I know maybe they don't really meant it.
But seriously;for me when you say that it absorb in me..
Deep inside my Heart..
YES I OWNED UP I'M AN EMOTIONAL SHITTY PERSON OK!

And the thots of...
"You should get a better course,easy to get Jobs,Nursing should be a good COURSE..
Now,Wasted..Somemore,waste Time in ITE..waste $$,why can't you just be like .......,
they so clever...GOOD..."
Comparism,Like Seriously Which Mother Friend Would Boost About,
their Children Being a Failure,
of cause the would tell you the GOOD things..
And Comparing STUDIES in SG and Malaysian..
~OH MAN~

NOW TELL ME HOW DO I GET MOTIVATED WITH THESE COMMENTS KEEP COMING EVERYDAY??

I know anyone would say oh actually, you should prove them wrong...
You should show them You're BETTER..
Nah it doesn't WORKS on me..
I rather have PRAISES..
Even if I don't do that GOOD,
i would like to Hear "Oh its OK,You did your Best..No Pressure.GoodWork,Keep the GDWork Going.."(^_^)
that will Boost my Motivation More..
NOT With Bad Comments.
At least I feel more Relax ..
that boost my motivation to do better..
Rather then "oh man you should Have Done Better,OR Thats it you can get?"

YES human can never be Satisfied with anything,
Greedy Bunch of Living Creatures.
I Rather be A non-living thing.
A BED?A COFFIN?THE STARS?THE MOON?


and OH Seriously I Just Wish I can just DIE Now..
as I'm already feeling Like Dying.


I HOPE MIRACLES CAN HAPPEN TO ME..SOON..ONE FINE DAY?WHEN?

Now I feel so SHITTY;

I got Sun-Burn on my Face,

And Just Now Operation Hurts..

Well when it was Done the Doctor Gave me some Numb Medication,

tho I never felt anything,

But now..It Hurts..

It's Like..When You Press on Very Hard..

And I did Not go to school Just NOW,

Cause of the Operation..

And I'm Missing Alot of Studies Currently.

And I got Tests coming and I haven't Study!!

I'm so not in the MOOD to go OUT

even to school,even to nearby Mall..

They Should Have Emitted me to stay in the hospital for few days..

OR MC for a week?

BLAAA...only ONE day..

And I bought Alot of USAGI Clips

Hey Hey
Konnichiwa!~


Been Busy,with Work;
Hah and Mostly When I came Online;
I usually Played Game on Facebook;
All the Word Search..Etc..
it Help to BOOST my English.
(^^)


I'm Trying my Best to Change;
Be more Alert During Lessons;
Be More Friendly towards Others;
And Never Make Enemies.
Forgive and Forget..


And Trying my best Not to get MAD very easily,
*PEACE*

Hey I'm Completely Heal Up
Seriously
Awe,After Watching Atashinchi no Danshi
I'm Just Fine
And Thinking Of the Jokes
About the Flower and "Mohd T.O.P bin P.O.T"
Hahaha
(^.^)


I guess I have To go Back to my Normal Self
Watching Alot of Dramas
And Going Crazy Over alot of Ikemens
And Crack Alot of Jokes
And Be Happy+Healthy+Hyper


AND I WANT MORE OF ATASHINCHI NO DANSHI
(^.^)

OMG!!!

Kill me NOW like Seriously

Fucking Fuck UP..That I feel Like ARGH!!!!

MNDEKJT4WRHBKJRT

Throwing Anything That is near me;

Or Beat Someone Up;Kill Someone;

Like Seriously I just Wasted My Fucking FUCK UP Time ;

For Fucking Going to the Fucking Shop;

Which they eventually say that the PAY is Today;

I'm Already too Fuck'd Up that they change the Day from Friday to Sat then to Sun

AND NOW FUCKING MONDAY!!

Thanks for Wasting my Fucking Life

and add on my Stressness LIKE SERIOUSLY;

I have enough Stressness in my Life rite now,

Don't need MORE PLEASE!!

Hey Guys Thanks For trying to cheer me up;

Yes you guys;

Syuha,Aida,Afandi and Syafiq

Thanks Alot...

But I'm too Fuck'd Up

I know You guys are too,

And I would like to apologise for being too Moody

Idk Man I'm like so Fuck'd Up.

Man I really need to control my Anger and Mood nowadays

I'm Just Mad at myself sometimes.

IDK whats wrong with me,like seriously;

I get so Angry at all lil things;

I'm not Eating Well;

I always feel like Vomitting after I eat;

And sometimes I feel like qutting School;

Cause I have no interest in Studies anymore..

I dont know why,I really want to Get Good Grades,

And to always say to myself I should study but I never did;

and I get very lethargic soo much recently;

Like as if I'm going to Die soon;

OH I WISH I WAS ABOUT TO DIE,

And on Monday I got to go to NUH again

for second appointment;

Idk do some core needle thing;

And I'm like seriously dk what is that..

But I hope It would KILL ME.

ARGH!!!!!

Wanna know my wish Now?

is cut off my heart and give to someone who wish to live a longer LIFE.

And IDK why I'm like having difficulties in breathing nowadays..

Idk why?symptoms of Dying I think;

And I have to keep breathing slowly..

so I can control my Anger,a long deep breathe...

like every Second;

Like seriously My Life was good during the Hols at least;

After School Open everything turn back to BAD

from BAD to WORST

and I nvr really feel so Good in Life always;

Only that time IDK why;

altho I have to Work Alot and feel so Tired;

I still feel Happy at least;

and when i get sick at least people care;

and have alot of Jokes with my Work friends;

and a good life..I really miss those Days;

Like Really Really...

And NOW things have to go back to my OLD fucking Life.

ALL FUCK'D UP AND SHITS;

But hey at least I still have my friends.

Love you guys Alot,

Thanks for being there for me;

Hugs Hugs Hugs

And to my Love Bitch

Take Care of Your Flower From

Your BoyFriend

"Mohd T.O.P bin P.O.T"

LOL

A Koreamly=Korean+Malay

Haha..That Joke really Burst My Mood for a while..

Thanks to you all..

This is why I Will Always Treasure our friendship

And I hate it when we all start school and have lesser time to hang out.

I MISS ALL OF YOU TOO MUCH!!

I want everyone bck..except for that BITCH which cause ALL Shit to Happen

It not only Affect our friendship but our LIFE+ATMOSPHERE+EVERYTHING!!

FUCK OFF LA!

everything was just fine until You try to Fit IN'

And Congrats You WON!!

Happy NOW??

Oh my? These type of people still exists?

I rather have a DRAG QUEEN as a friend like seriously...

*criesssss

Haha Man Seriously I'm Like Listening to Mareydi†Creia

~LOL~

And I'm so SHOCKED

Kai former Band,

OMG!

And I'm Still Searching for Ruki Former Band in MP3 version

Kar＋te＝zyAnose [切茜 Setsu akane?] <
HELP!

haha ruki first band Mikoto and he is known as [楓, Kaede]
oh my heaven;

Imagining calling Ruki by "Kaede","Kirihi","Setsu akane"...

Uruha formerly known as "Kyouki"
Reita "Reiki"
Aoi "Natsume"

let's see them young

(Uruha!)


(Reita!)

OMG it's Been Ages Since I Cry About Someone'
Like Seriously'
I Dont Know what The Fuck Wrong With Me
I guess my Head Wire is Losing or electrocuted;
OR I can say is My Temperature is getting High
I'm getting SICK.. again? omg,
can i JUST die and get over with LIFE now,
And Tom i got a test which i studied on SATURDAY;
and now with my Fucked UP'd head
I don't think i can remember ONE single shit,
even if I remember also; i'm just to FUCK'D up to think anything
expecially NOW!


And these few days I've been so FUCKED'D up,
i get MAD at every lil things which bothers me ALOT,
every person who talks to me will tend to be scolded;
or I'm just PISS off with everything I do or DONE,
Well I'm sorry PEOPLE
IDK whats wrong with me nowadays
FUCK SHIT KANINA CIBAI
I just feel like killing someone
or at least smash something UP (my face?)
I think i'm just carried awy with alot of SHIT
SHIT HAPPENS yea..so Does LUCK,
maybe today is just a SHITTY day for me,
TOM or next time would be my HAPPY days.
FUUHHH... 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10..
haha i need to attend an anger management course NOW!
LIKE REALLY REALLY;
I'm going Crazy nowadays,
I'm too worried about every lil STUFF,
that i'm not doing things well
and thinking non-straight,WTF is WRONG with ME!
*knock head on wall*
OMG REMIND ME TO GO OUT AT NIGHT ALONE,
stroll along the Park,look at the MOON and stars at NIGHT,
I usually do that..But nowadays SELDOM;
like I have Time?I wish I can Steal Time;Freeze Time,
Shit..FUCKING SHIT.
I really Hate This Feeling LAAAAA...
I Seriously Need Entertainment OR At Least Give Back What I Got Last Time.
(^^)


HEY HEY HEY HEY HEY
it's OK Ruki-san is here!!
AWE I wish this is soo fucking TRUE
Fantasy is better then Suffering w/out anything to occupy your HEAD..
RUKI HUGS HUGS

OMG!!

After One now Another

God Make This End Fast!

But Hey my Friends I'm Always here to Be there For you OK,

it's ok,In Life there's Always the Bad & Good Part;

This is Life man,I know It SUCKS TO THE CORE!

yea,but theres always the sweet life SOON

(^-^)

Man What About ME?

HAHA i myself also DON'T KNOW..

let's now Think of ?? School & results & Work fully..

I'm HAPPY and SAD at the same time for myself and my Friends.

MIX-UP!